good old weekend

it's friday and im happy about it. there are no scheduled activities or nightouts. i dont even have a date! (^^) anyone who wants to take me out??? hehehe

there are good movies on screen, might watch scary movies tomorrow. frenchie movies are being shown from free, might check out one of the titles ... hangout or sleep in the theater wehehe it sure is hot in my room.

im back to my good old life... alone and loving it!

talking with strangers

ever happen to you when you suddenly feel so alone and got no one to talk too... and nobody is answer your phone call or messages? you wonder, where's everyone?

well, i felt that way a while ago. i decided to go online. chat. talk with anyone. much to my desmay, i was bombarded with horny jerks. i cant believe what a mess mirc cebu now.

it's sickening!

happy days... again (^^)

hi everyone! i refrained from posting for the past days because i was gloomy and sad. i've noticed that so far, the general mood of my blog is a sad face. my blog was suppose to account all the important happy events of my life!

im quite happy today. at least im beginning to find happiness on the sample things around me.

for a short time, i got used to being with someone. my usual routine changed. it felt good. it felt nice. my life had colors, much brighter, much colorful, more interesting, more exciting . i was singing, thanks god i stopped, i knew it sounded terrible! (^^)

happy days are here, again... mwah!

i erased it

im sorry about publishing your messages here. but i cant delete those.
those are precious for me. i've transfered them to the blog i made for you.

why would you be ashame anyway?

spacefoods

i was practically running my curly head throughout my morning... i wish i can split myself half so i can do twice as much work as i can. somehow, i was happy this way because i made myself busy... made me forget "things".

before i knew it, it was time for lunch and i had no food!

spacefoods came to the rescue. i was hesitant because before somebody used to remind me to limit my intake of canned goods. i ate two cans and i felt bad afterwards. not because i ate the forbidden but because i missed the person who used to restrict me from eating it.

god, i miss you.

who stole my magic?

i'm heartbroken, now what?

after 4 sleepless nights, 3 nights of getting wasted, sobs and tears, self pity and shame, what now?

i know it's happened to almost everyone-a breakup but still it's seemingly impossible to recover from.

either it's just two months or five years too long, everybody undergoes:

• The constant questioning, "Why? Why? Why?"
• The every hour, on-the-hour sobfest until your tear ducts run dry
• The urge to call him at three in the morning
• The urge to call him and say nothing (you just want to hear his voice...sob!)
• The urge to call him names
• The zero-energy days (or weeks, or months) when you just want to stay in bed and listen to senti music
• The Depression Diet where you can't eat anything (or, worse, all you can eat is ice cream)
• The absolute loss of self-esteem when you begin to think that he stopped loving you/cheated on you/changed his mind about being with you because you put on some weight/acquired wrinkles/lost your sense of humor/ are ugly.

i wanted to hate, i wanted to curse, i wanted to wish that we didnt meet- so that i can get over more quickly.

i was able to ponder what could have really happened. my friends would say that you fooled me. my bestfriend said you left because you got already what you wanted. maybe they are right...

but part of me still want to believe in you and believe the promised of love that we shared
- temporary madness. i dont want to turn the wonderful memories we shared into a nightmare. i dont want to turn the sunny summer we shared into a gloomy past. the song "i love you more today than yesterday" should not be on our soundtrack. "'til supply last" would be a good tag. and it did last and it last too soon.

Confessions of a broken heart

There are few things in life that are harder on a person than the time when they realize that the love they have worked so hard at, and spent so much time on, is about to be over.

I want you to know that I do not feel good about myself or happy with what I just said. To be honest, I would much be rather writing about you and I and how wonderful and fulfilling things have been between us ever since the day we met.

I wish somebody could explain to me why our destiny is so cruel. But much as I would like such an explanation that alone would not be enough to ease the pain of your absence, to suppress this sadness I have in my heart and which you can see reflected in my eyes.

You are just there... a ride, txt and phonecall away but you seem so far, so out of reach. The distance is unberable because I not only miss you but I also wonder if you are doing well, if you and if your mind and soul are at peace. I´m also curious to know if you think of me in the same way I think of you, which is just about every single minute and second that goes by (and the clock ticks so slowly when we´re not together!). I want to call you so badly. I want to hear your voice so much. Would I be disturbing you? Would I be distracting you? Would I be disrupting the time and space you've asked me to give? I want to be with you and make you realize that my affection goes far beyond the words I´m writing to you now.

I am missing you more and more and I start getting worried as I stare at the door just waiting for you to surprise me with your arrival at any moment. Sweet delusion... you are so far away right now that all I can ask for is that time moves faster...

No matter what happens and how long we will still have to be apart, you will always be in my heart. But I had to write to you today and, in a way, try to sooth this feeling that took over me so strongly!

A sad kiss...

this is for you

Remembering the time when we're together
In a love, I thought, will last forever
But then there came a day
When you had to go away

I watched your back as you leave
Wondering how I can ever live
Without you and your love that's so real
Do you even know how I feel?

I think of you every now and then
Wondering when I will see you again
Do you know that I can't live without you?
Do you feel the same way as I do?

So many questions enter my mind nd
I feel so left behind
So lost and confused I still live on
just wishing that you'd never gone

But then there's other things to be done
than wonder what might be if you haven't gone.
Realizing that you're not here anymore
-as you have already gone through that door.

give me some skin!

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