sigh ... why are you treating me this way?

i understand you are going through some rough road now.
i understand that you maybe upset now.

im here ... to listen, to give you company, to share your sorrows with.
but, somehow you are treating me coldly.
you drifting away...

i feel miserable. i dont not know what to do. im lost.

How Jealous Are You?

Is a little jealousy healthy for a relationship, or is it a recipe for disaster? If you think it's healthy, how much of it is ok before it becomes a problem?

Most books would say that no amount of jealousy is healthy! It's one of the most destructive emotions in a relationship. It means: 1) There's a lack of trust in the relationship. 2) The jealous one doesn't feel worthy of being loved, or doesn't accept the love of the other. If either of the above are true, the relationship will be unbalanced -- and eventually, it will self=destruct.

But for me being jealous sparks passion and romance. It shows that you care and don't want to lose your lover. Basically, a little jealousy can go a long way towards making a relationship a healthy one -- but how little is 'little'?

I took a jealousy quiz to find out how mean my green streak really is... and the results states:

Super Ego
You're far too confident and self-assured to bother fussing, fretting or fuming over other people's fortunes or foibles. Because you're okay with you, you don't waste time or Tums mistrusting your nearest and dearest or toting up their wins to your losses every time they score. Since you act with taste and good grace, friends, family, lovers and coworkers probably live up to your trust and appreciate your toasts. No green rages or purple paranoia for you as you walk through life content with your bounty -- and secure you can hold onto it.

how much have i changed?

3 YEARS AGO TODAY:

How old were you?:
~~> twenty three

Where did you go to school?:
~~> silliman university

Where did you work?:
~~> some export firm (not telling)

Where did you live?:
~~> cebu

How was your hair style?:
~~> short, straightened

Did you have braces?:
~~> never

Did you wear glasses?:
~~> nope

Who was your best friend?:
~~> 501 girls: daph, love, janice

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend:
~~> no one

Who was your celebrity crush?:
~~> sean paul

How many tattoos did you have?:
~~> none

How many piercings did you have?
~~> six

What car did you drive?:
~~> bumper cars ahahha

What was your favorite band/group?:
~~> r'n b

What was your worst fear?
~~ being stuck forever

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?:
~~> yeah

Had you gotten drunk or high yet?:
~~> yeah

Had you driven yet?
~~> just dem toy cars

Had you been to a real party yet?:
~~> yeah

Had your heart broken?
~~> so badly


**NOW.....

How old are you?:
~~> twenty six

Where do you live?:
~~> cebu still. another pad. had transfered 3 times!

Where do you hang out?:
~~> acoustic bars. nice music relaxin ambiance

How is your hair style?:
~~> curly, long, sexy

Do you have braces?:
~~> never

Do you wear glasses?:
~~> yeah when im in front of the computer, like now

Who is your best friend?:
~~> too many. somehow iv built my circle.

Still talk to any of your old friends?:
~~> every single one of them

Who is your celebrity crush?:
~~> JACK JOHNSON!!

Who is your regular-person crush?:
~~> my boyfriend =)

How many piercings do you have?:
~~> three

How many tattoos?:
~~> thinking of getting one... lower back..

What is your favorite singer/group?:
~~> still reggae, jack johnson

have you smoked a cigarette?
~~> yeah, before. i finally decided no more..

Have you gotten drunk or high?:
~~> yeah.. and i decided to take it lightly now

Have you been to a real party?:
~~> yeah, im goin to a party tonight

Mee luv u'to

I have lived for a long time dependent upon no one, answering to no one and committed to no one except myself. During this period of my life, I considered the World mine for the taking and truly believed that I was living life to the fullest. Then, you came into the picture, and all of a sudden, I realized that I was deceiving myself.

I am incomplete and realized that I need wholeness. I find that my life is not all that I thought it was. In fact, it is terribly lacking in many things, the foremost being love. Now, through some great fortune, I have found that love and along with it the one person who can make my life truly complete.

You are that person. To be honest, I never thought I would ever utter those words, but now, they come forth effortlessly and with great sincerity. I'll be forever greatful to you for showing me just how shallow my life was. At last, I have a chance to give it depth and purpose.

I wanted to tell you this in person, but I knew that the proper words would escape me. I wrote you this letter instead.

Why does it have to be you?

It was not my intention
How could I have known?
When we met that day
That I would want you for my own

You mean alot to me
That Im sure will always be.
But, This feeling overcomes me
Whenever you are near
You make me happy.

Do I keep it to myself?
Do I bottle up my love for you...
And place it on a shelf ?

The next time that I saw you I had to look away.
Worse if I choose to go away.

I felt betrayed.
I felt played.
But I know it was my mistake.
Because i knew that you i cant take.

I layed upon my bed
I heard your voice inside my head
I tossed and turned all evening
I cried my way till morning.

- This is for you. You know who you are.

what do you see?

Tell me, what do you see?
What message does this picture tells?
Describe it with an adjective.

sexy? seductive? serene?


Comments would be greatly appreciated.