strung out

"What the hell am I doing?"

Last night as I was laying in bed, begging myself to fall asleep, stress finally caught up with me. Big time.

What the hell am I doing? Which, incidentally, is not the same questions as, "Why am I doing it?" Because the answer to that one hasn't changed.

I am feeling lonely again. And I missed someone badly. He is my refuge in times like this. His words keeps me company throughout my dreaded night blues.

I miss you.

Missing my life line

How could one possibly miss somebody who barely existed?

I wish I could disappear like you...

maybe I will.

subatomiclevel - fact or fiction?

Did you ever wake up one day and realized that something was just not quite right with the world??? You looked out the window expecting to see it raining, but the sun was shining - so that wasn't it. You went to take a shower and figured.

At first, I was kinda bothered with the situation of " You don't know me but I know you. I know lots about you... "

If you are reading this, congratulations, you are continuing to do a great job. The fact that you found all my works online only means that you have invested a great deal of your time and effort in knowing me. I am flattered and equally impressed. When we first talked, I thought my one of my friends was playing a practical joke on me, and then I realized that you are real, and I don't have a clue of who you were.

For now, I am happy of how things are. I am thrilled, the feeling of sudden strong glowing, tingling or throbbing sensation, especially of excitement of somehow knowing somebody i completely dont know (do i make sense?). The mystery of your identity is my challenge now.

But don't blame me if curiosity eats me up and provokes me to ask you out. As early as now, I'm already wondering what it would be like talking to you in person, laughing out load with you, and wondering if you'll enjoy siomai as much as I do (^^).

Believe me, it is no easy feat. It's up there along with one of Hercules' ten tasks. In this day and age, will a self-respecting girl like me has the time or patience to play sheep-eyes for weeks while waiting for you to ‘get it’? It’s so fifties (not in a good way- ---I am assuming I can handle all these of course! ) .

For the meantime, I will try to study and master Dating 101 especially on the chapter on How to Ask a Guy out and, hoping to become a super-suave maestro ready to rival Cleopatra when that time comes!

The things worth having in life don't come easy. Sometimes, you really have to struggle for them. And the first step you can take starts with a simple "Hi, I think you're pretty cool. Will you go out with me?"

My Bantayan escape!

Summer must have started here in the Philippines. Going out to beach is the best thing I have in mind when summer comes. I’m not an urban critter so I always look forward to spending my weekends, most especially during summer, in the beach or countryside. The summer sun is unsually hot. The beach is the best refuge to escape the sweltering heat of the summer tropical sun.

Cebu is nature, a land of surprise wonders. Forget about the monicker "queen city of the south" as it only refers to the bustling capital of the same name. Drop the word city from the overused nomicker and you will know hy Cebu is a great place to travel (never grew tired in my 5 yrs of stay so far!). The nature reigns in this tropical beautiful island. White sandy beaches. Lush mountains. Vardant hills and valleys. Undulating fertile farmlands. Paradisical coral islets. Magnificent coral reefs... and i could go on (^^)

I chose to spend my Holy Week vacation in Bantayan this year, not because I can eat meat there, but everybody here in Cebu is going there!

Bantayan is an option for those who find Boracay too expensive or too far. Bantayan is almost like Boracay less the commercialized atmosphere. Same powdery, white sand beaches, crystal clear waters which is ideal for snorkelling or diving. There are also caves and dive spots to visit.

Here are a few highlights of my vacation.

Budyong, place to be...

Since the place was jam packed when we arrived Thursday at Budyong Resort, we had no choice but to stay in my ever reliable tents like everyone else - yes, nature tripping at its best. (Rate: P300 per tent /day phew!)

Can you spot my tent?

Here are a few shots of the resort. The nipa huts, the coco trees, and the fabulous shoreline!
Life is a beach (^^)

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Party party party!

Budyong Resort has always been my home everytime I visit Bantayan during Holy Week. Why? of course, it is where the party is!

This year, Smart Communications, San Miguel, Club Pump and Numero Doce joint hands in giving an ultimate beach party and ahem, bikini fashion show. Kamikaze bottoms up!

It was a showdown of six-packs and oily bodies in skimpy bikinis hehehehe.

This guy stood out amongst the participants. He was such an audience teaser.

What can I say, he is such a sexy creature!

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Welcome to Santa Fe, Bantayan!

This is the scenery that will greet you as soon as you arrived in Sta. Fe.

Sta Fe's wet market. Fish and other sea foods are sold fresh and cheap!

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Holy Week Celebration in Bantayan

Contrary to the notion that Bantayan is having their Fiesta on Holy Week.

I have always been fascinated with churches. Here's bantayan pride.

Holy Friday procession is well attended not just by the locals but for tourist too.

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In a rush

Easter Sunday, everbody's scrambling to get a ride back home.

As you can see these men are entering from the window to make sure they'll get a seat on the bus. This is a typical scene in Hagnaya Bus Terminal after Holy Week back to Cebu City.

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Alot of people find Bantayan an unforgettable place and always keep on coming back. I sure wish I could also do the same.

Budyong Resort, Sta. Fe
Bantayan Island
Cebu, Philippines
Summer 2007

Michelle Montenegro