french connection

bonjour!

we are not learning french today, however, to some degree i feel a curious sense of being related to the french life and culture. maybe not related, but having something in common.

life and culture never cease to amaze me. my imaginary life, for example, is set in provence (south of france). where i will wake up when i want to, be forever clad only in bikinis and thin caftan. my waist-length hair flowing freely in the southern breeze and my skin always with a golden glow to it... meals of exquisite salads and steaks, tons of wine, fruits and unadulterated smooching. *impish grin*

there is no such thing as work. if i could do away with the internet, television and the telephone, there'd be none. but alas, even in this dream, i have to be practical. i have to have these mediums in order to connect with the rest of the globe, but only when i want to... i live in a vineyard. an apothecary on the side. *wink*

no neighbors.

aaah life... broad daylight dreaming ...

au revoir...

forever?

What does it mean when a guy says "forever " to you?

However sarcastic and jaded I seem to be, there is still a little girl waiting inside. A little girl hiding and waiting to be found, not necessarily by the proverbial knight in shining armor, perhaps just someone who will pick me up from where I've fallen and help me get up...

A part of me has always believed in love, always believed in it no matter how harsh my experiences have been, no matter how painful...

...the heart is incredibly strong and resilient, I once read. I found it to be true! No matter how torn apart and shattered it may seem, the heart always seems to mend right back and start beating again. Wonderful, isn't it? Living and loving are perhaps the two most wonderful experiences human existence has to offer.

I've always believed in starting a clean slate, whatever happened in the past can never be undone. There is no room in life for regrets, only lessons learned. The future holds much promise, and hope that it will be better, and it will be if you make it. The present is not always as wonderful as we want it to be but it's all we got and what's important is how we live it and make the most out of it. My present has been truly wonderfully unexpected. I am not talking about work here... *grin*

Forever... is there really such a thing? When it is there in front of you, will you take it? How will you know it's for real? All these questions in my head, going round and round. I want it to be true, I want this to be real. I want to have forever. Is that too much to ask? Could I really be in love this time? I'm afraid but I really want to know... forever...